EDIT: lasted for maybe 3 hours - just long enough to say- "HA! Made you flinch" and now it is gone again... See! What can you do...

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A quick hello...
Remember all of those past posts about my issue with "Aunt Flo" and such?
Well- in our last chapter I had managed to get into a groove so to speak. That was October 7th. Why do I know that? Because I keep track of everything on a wall calendar in my kitchen. Uuugh!
So last night... in the middle of working on shrines for my deadline- it came back. 13 days later.
SIGH
That is a little soonish. Should be 28 days at least.
I am not sure what to think.
I am going to give this until the end of November just to see if this demon is working itself out before I go back to the doctor. Well unless something really weird happens.

If I go back now- I will only be told that it is stress, that I have not given it enough time, OR that I need to try another dose of Progestin! Which will make me have a temporary lapse of reason and yell out something completely inappropriate or just jump off the table kicking and biting!

I don't know... I am no longer concerned for some reason. I just kind of don't have it in me to care. You know- how you see something in the news where someone has grown a third arm or is covered in warts or something completely terrifying? AND you think- WHY didn't they do something when it first started? WELL I am here to tell you- that you just grow so frustrated and tired that you just ignore the extra arm!

Okay- coffee is ready and I need to go work on these shrines. They are due this weekend.

XxooxX

Something I made today-
It makes my heart swell...
I posted it in my ETSY shop.
XxooxX

I did it again- I had to justify today as a time for myself- isn't that silly-stupid? I mean I had to keep telling myself all day that it is okay to do something other than work on art and to go and work on... art. Are you following me? (Indeed I am having a hard time with things...)
Haa... I know it is all one thing- but well- in my brain- I feel like I can not waste any time. That being said- I decided that I would take today and spend it anyway I wanted and not feel bad...

A little while back- I had won this delightful kitten-pin cushion on Ebay and knew he and I would make beautiful music together! Well - more like Art...

So I grabbed hold of him and rushed out to the studio and without thinking too much an over analyzing it into the ground- I just quickly sketched out an image- and went right to work. Not sure if this was the right way to begin a painting- but I thought I needed to let go of the heaviness of the process and just dig in...

Well- here it is-for now. Something which I can get gratification from quickly. I rather like being able to work like this...

More later- I need to get myself to bed soon.
Thank you for following me- as always.
xxooxx

Happy 3 years!!!

XoxoxoX

Something FUN I finished last night...

Now on my ETSY shop!

Despite going to bed around 3am I felt amazingly refreshed this morning.
I think it had everything to do with a little research before bed time. I was talking to Thomas before bed and I asked him about his thoughts on my hair loss lately. I mentioned that my hair has been really coming out like crazy lately and I have been UBER concerned. I was not sure if this had anything to do with being stressed out or maybe something else. He happened to have the laptop and I asked him to look up the side effects of Progestine. Sure enough- Oral contraceptives do have terrible side effects such as hair loss as well as making my face break out.
That made me feel so much better.
I mean- it sucks eggs- but at least I know there is a reason. Those 10 days of Progestrin really did a number on my body. Sure it stopped my bleeding but goodness- really?!?!?! Part of me would have rather bled than having to go through all of this other stuff...

However- all of that being said- I felt like a weight had been lifted by this morning. Just knowing there is a reason- makes me feel- less out of control.

Anyway- I am really looking forward to talking about other things- rather than my body.
How about this Weather!?!?!
xxooxx

• Went out last night around 6:00pm and started to sort and clean studio for the week ahead.
• Tore it apart to sort and clean. Found things I didn't know about including my ring and a ring of kitty-piddle on corner of rug...uugh!
• Went inside to find cleaning products which would clean run and discovered that the floor under sink is rotting...uugh.
• Took everything out from under there- cleaned it out- found the source of leak and had Thomas figure out a quick fix.
• Put everything back neatly- and got rid of lots of useless old crap. Also found the cleaning stuff for rug.
• Went out and cleaned rug and working on some jewelry.
• Finally went to bed around 2:30am
• Got up and went out to studio and started to work on finishing up "scooter" reliquary but could not concentrate- THE SMELL of CAT was too strong!!! Uuugh!
• Finally decided to give up and just take out rug and throw it away.
• It was stuck under two of the four main tables- too heavy to lift.
• Started to take things off table to see if I could lift an end- with no such luck.
• Took a blade and CUT IT OUT from under table! THREW IT AWAY! P-U!
• *Sigh* needed to put something down so that I can easily work- so dragged the other rug over. BUT IT DOESN'T FIT- so I stop and decided that I have to take everything off both shelves and table top. (After I already cleaned last night) Looks like a BOMB went off.
• Got everything off and still can not move tables- they are bolted into place. UUUUGH!
• After a call to Thomas complaining of my troubles. I just decided to CUT THE RUG (no not dance) down to size. It was only a $20 rug.
• Feel better now that the carpet is down- Looks actually nice.
• Come inside to find out- that Virgil wet the couch! (His box was too full and needed changing- BUT I HAD BEEN BUSY with Cleaning that I didn't get to it fast enough and POW! He tagged the couch!)
• Took off the covers and washed them- and struggled to get them back on. GOOD thing is that it was not so much- and didn't go through to the actual couch!
• Note to self- Don't Mess with the Virg. Before I take his anywhere- I must check for clean boxes. He totally is fussy about it- and I don't blame him- I feel bad... Poor Virgil!
• Now I am So tired. Need to work on finalizing proposals for tomorrow.
• ZzzZzzZzz Nap time for me for now- then back to work.

A dear friend told me about this: Ted.com

There are other good talks as well...I urge you to take a short time out of your day to just listen to someone else talk for a change.XxooxX

!@#$%^!
I never want to eat again!
I thought that I would try and have something to eat early today- you know- what most people refer to as breakfast/lunch- thus giving my body ample time to burn it off.
So I made 2 poached eggs, 2 little sausage patties and a table spoon of chunky salsa. (Approximate 420 calories) Somewhat- low carb and yummy!

Well- NOW my body has crashed AGAIN and I am totally sleepy. I can't concentrate and all  I want to do is crawl into bed. HOW AM I GOING TO GET ANY WORK DONE when I feel so tired?!?!

That is what I get for thinking I can go back to eating 3 meals a day.
NOPE

I have altered myself so much that eating anything before 3 in the afternoon- leaves me feeling tired and unhappy.

So it is back to coffee all day...

DAMN it...

I went out to the studio to do something I find as- relaxing- Ahhh Paint.
At first I was going to start something new- but for some reason I decided to stick to something I started and never finished. My "Infant of Cats"...

I really need to finish this... it has been too long.