January 9, 2009
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Traveling...alone
Thomas just secured plane tickets to Utah for my for Feb 25th. I am traveling to an art retreat to teach. ALONE. For the first time in my life. I know it seems like no big thing- but when you have been kept, have had everything always taken care of for you, and never once had to worry or think about anything- it becomes HUGE on the anxiety scale. I mean- I am not worried about all the things that could go wrong. I mean- so what if I miss a something. I mean- I will just deal with it. All of that is not the problem. It is something very odd and different. It is a strange feeling of loneliness. You see- I love traveling with the boy- sharing all our adventures together. Being on the flight, talking, helping each other- ahh face it. I am co-dependent. I love being around him. I am not fond of doing anything this big-alone. So this trip will be very odd- very different- NOT to mention it is in the Mountains of UTAH in a Chalet! Eek! Haa... Once off of the plane- I catch a 2 hour shuttle to this cabin... I teach and then I return home. Easy actually... but still.And to think- I was thinking as I sat at my desk at my old job- YES! I would LOVE to not be sitting here- I would love to be on a plane to somewhere to teach! HA! And so I am...
Now I have to find where I left that sense of adventure! (okay- secretly I am excited... I have been REALLY Craving adventure! It is just getting used to it... being my first time and all...)
Be careful what you wish for! hahahahahahaaa!Okay- now back to other things- like bedtime!
xxooxx
Comments (2)
I used to travel for my work about 50% of the time. I did find that it was lonely, but I wasn't doing what I loved either! That said, traveling alone builds confidence! I specifically remember the first time I took myself to dinner in Manhattan-table for one-and how odd that felt! I would have no problem traveling alone now--but I'm with you--sharing the adventure is definitely more fun. Oh the insane stories I have from those days!
There is a shuttle? that's good! I hope you will find the experience empowering.
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